1 00:03:06,896 --> 00:03:09,982 I thought start at the beginning. 2 00:03:13,569 --> 00:03:15,237 But it's not as I remember. 3 00:03:23,537 --> 00:03:24,705 Everything is just a series of 4 00:03:25,623 --> 00:03:26,624 fragments. 5 00:03:29,293 --> 00:03:30,794 Rehearsals. 6 00:03:33,380 --> 00:03:35,507 Pattern formations. 7 00:03:57,738 --> 00:03:59,823 When there is no words for pain... 8 00:04:05,204 --> 00:04:07,706 let your imagination run change what you know. 9 00:04:09,959 --> 00:04:11,335 Conglomerates. 10 00:04:11,835 --> 00:04:13,504 Movement of the earth in the freedom of water. 11 00:04:16,674 --> 00:04:18,384 A circle around a stone brings luck. 12 00:04:19,843 --> 00:04:21,428 Polite until it becomes tiny. 13 00:04:23,430 --> 00:04:25,307 Sandstone is calming and clear. 14 00:04:25,516 --> 00:04:27,309 Shale, of course, is rational. 15 00:04:27,935 --> 00:04:29,269 The red rock is the blood of the earth. 16 00:04:31,772 --> 00:04:33,399 You believe in blue. 17 00:04:57,881 --> 00:05:02,302 I'm sorry. Sorry. 18 00:05:03,429 --> 00:05:04,680 Memories... 19 00:05:07,307 --> 00:05:08,475 are stories. 20 00:05:11,270 --> 00:05:13,439 So you better invent some one to live with. 21 00:05:13,689 --> 00:05:17,276 I - Hold your breath 22 00:05:33,375 --> 00:05:34,501 Smiling face. 23 00:05:41,800 --> 00:05:42,926 Flower. 24 00:05:55,272 --> 00:05:56,482 Christmas tree. 25 00:06:20,089 --> 00:06:21,090 Stop. 26 00:06:22,341 --> 00:06:23,884 Claudia, go upstairs. 27 00:06:24,176 --> 00:06:25,177 Go ahead! 28 00:06:28,180 --> 00:06:29,181 Move! 29 00:06:36,313 --> 00:06:37,940 Just tell me when you're finished. 30 00:06:38,816 --> 00:06:40,275 We can do this all night. 31 00:06:50,786 --> 00:06:52,246 Shit ! 32 00:07:33,036 --> 00:07:35,038 I think it will make you good, Claudia. 33 00:07:35,289 --> 00:07:37,916 Really. It's okay get back on your feet. 34 00:07:40,377 --> 00:07:41,837 Get back on your feet. 35 00:07:52,139 --> 00:07:53,265 Sing with me, Belle. 36 00:07:53,640 --> 00:07:55,976 Oh, my darling 37 00:07:56,059 --> 00:07:57,644 Oh, my darling 38 00:07:58,061 --> 00:08:01,190 Oh, my darling Clementine 39 00:08:01,273 --> 00:08:03,275 Come on, Lidia Belle. Sing with me. 40 00:08:03,358 --> 00:08:04,943 You know the words. 41 00:08:05,444 --> 00:08:09,907 You are lost and gone forever 42 00:08:09,990 --> 00:08:11,783 Terrible sadness 43 00:08:12,242 --> 00:08:15,204 It's my voice that has gone. 44 00:08:18,707 --> 00:08:20,918 Sometimes I think that it happened on paper. 45 00:08:22,085 --> 00:08:24,129 I wrote pictures and truths. 46 00:08:24,213 --> 00:08:26,215 Lies, indifferently. 47 00:08:27,341 --> 00:08:29,635 It gave me the impression to be... someone else. 48 00:08:29,718 --> 00:08:32,095 Oh, damn it! 49 00:08:32,179 --> 00:08:33,722 I was writing words to belong to. 50 00:08:33,805 --> 00:08:35,098 She's our daughter! 51 00:08:35,182 --> 00:08:36,683 Not girl. 52 00:08:38,060 --> 00:08:39,311 Towards the swimmer. 53 00:08:40,812 --> 00:08:42,231 Towards safety. 54 00:08:42,314 --> 00:08:43,732 Towards the girls. 55 00:08:43,815 --> 00:08:45,234 My skin is getting hot. 56 00:08:45,317 --> 00:08:46,610 My head hurts. 57 00:08:46,693 --> 00:08:48,570 My mother. Her hair. 58 00:08:49,404 --> 00:08:50,697 His scar. 59 00:08:51,031 --> 00:08:52,616 His stories. 60 00:08:53,200 --> 00:08:56,036 I won a prize for this story, Belle. 61 00:08:56,245 --> 00:08:58,413 And your dad 62 00:09:00,332 --> 00:09:03,710 won an art prize for this drawing. 63 00:09:05,212 --> 00:09:07,839 How absent she was. 64 00:09:12,970 --> 00:09:15,222 And my sister. My adoration. 65 00:09:15,430 --> 00:09:18,016 My sister. My wonder. 66 00:09:18,100 --> 00:09:21,103 She looks like a tramp in this shapeless shirt. 67 00:09:21,270 --> 00:09:22,729 It doesn't make you look good. 68 00:09:23,855 --> 00:09:24,856 Look at me. 69 00:09:26,608 --> 00:09:28,068 Are you trying to look like a man? 70 00:09:29,069 --> 00:09:31,780 My sister. Who took everything. 71 00:09:38,954 --> 00:09:40,831 Even before you were born. 72 00:10:08,775 --> 00:10:09,943 In the house. 73 00:10:12,904 --> 00:10:14,156 Alone in my room. 74 00:10:15,157 --> 00:10:16,533 My arms hurt. 75 00:10:17,492 --> 00:10:18,785 My sister is gone. 76 00:10:20,996 --> 00:10:23,081 My mother is... 77 00:10:23,165 --> 00:10:24,166 absent. 78 00:10:26,626 --> 00:10:29,087 My father designs houses in the next room. 79 00:10:29,171 --> 00:10:30,380 He smokes. 80 00:10:45,228 --> 00:10:46,229 Hello, my darling. 81 00:10:56,239 --> 00:10:57,699 Hi. 82 00:11:07,709 --> 00:11:09,419 I wait until five in the morning. 83 00:11:11,797 --> 00:11:13,173 I pray 84 00:11:14,758 --> 00:11:16,176 for swimming. 85 00:11:31,525 --> 00:11:32,776 My little girl. 86 00:11:36,405 --> 00:11:37,781 You're growing up so fast. 87 00:11:44,162 --> 00:11:45,372 A teenage girl. 88 00:11:47,874 --> 00:11:49,042 At high school. 89 00:11:50,043 --> 00:11:51,086 I can't believe it. 90 00:11:51,211 --> 00:11:52,921 Very good. Online. 91 00:11:53,004 --> 00:11:55,549 Ladies, at the weigh-in. You know the rule. 92 00:11:55,632 --> 00:11:57,634 One shot for each extra kilo. 93 00:11:58,260 --> 00:11:59,302 Torres. 94 00:12:01,179 --> 00:12:02,180 There you go, my daughter. 95 00:12:10,939 --> 00:12:13,942 That's it, keep going. 96 00:12:14,401 --> 00:12:16,778 Reimer. Three kilos. 97 00:12:21,074 --> 00:12:22,284 Faster. 98 00:12:25,162 --> 00:12:26,663 Come on, baby. 99 00:12:27,289 --> 00:12:28,790 Stronger! 100 00:12:40,177 --> 00:12:43,138 Yuknavitch. One for you, the news. 101 00:12:43,346 --> 00:12:45,015 So we're going to make sure that it matters. 102 00:13:05,452 --> 00:13:06,703 Go ahead! 103 00:13:18,173 --> 00:13:20,258 How many kilometers does it take 104 00:13:24,304 --> 00:13:25,388 swim 105 00:13:30,060 --> 00:13:31,269 towards a self? 106 00:13:34,981 --> 00:13:35,982 How much 107 00:13:36,608 --> 00:13:37,776 of 108 00:13:38,485 --> 00:13:39,653 fucking 109 00:13:40,153 --> 00:13:41,905 kilometers? 110 00:13:47,035 --> 00:13:48,787 We broke a record! 111 00:13:48,870 --> 00:13:51,331 We broke a fucking record! 112 00:13:51,414 --> 00:13:52,749 We are proud to announce 113 00:13:52,832 --> 00:13:55,043 than our gold medalists 200 meter medley relay 114 00:13:55,126 --> 00:13:56,836 from the aquatic team from Florida 115 00:13:56,920 --> 00:13:59,130 achieved the best time across the country. 116 00:13:59,214 --> 00:14:00,507 Congratulations. 117 00:14:00,590 --> 00:14:02,175 Recruiters are watching, terminals. 118 00:14:28,702 --> 00:14:30,287 So you want really that, huh? 119 00:14:36,418 --> 00:14:37,544 All right. 120 00:14:57,147 --> 00:14:59,190 You only have three quarters of the purse. 121 00:15:03,945 --> 00:15:05,488 Hey, if they wanted you, 122 00:15:05,572 --> 00:15:08,700 they would have offered you the whole thing, right? 123 00:15:24,674 --> 00:15:27,927 "We are delighted to offer a partial scholarship." 124 00:15:29,554 --> 00:15:30,555 Half. 125 00:15:31,056 --> 00:15:32,432 You are better than that. 126 00:15:35,935 --> 00:15:37,270 Last. 127 00:15:51,910 --> 00:15:53,536 In my head, I was doing laps. 128 00:15:55,538 --> 00:15:57,415 not even one full scholarship. 129 00:16:02,712 --> 00:16:03,922 Hey, don't blame this on me. 130 00:16:05,423 --> 00:16:07,384 If they don't want you, you have nothing to do there. 131 00:16:07,467 --> 00:16:09,260 I tasted blood. 132 00:16:09,344 --> 00:16:11,638 The answer is no. 133 00:16:12,555 --> 00:16:13,556 Why? 134 00:16:21,690 --> 00:16:22,691 Because he could. 135 00:16:25,944 --> 00:16:26,945 What? 136 00:16:27,696 --> 00:16:29,072 And I was his. 137 00:16:41,543 --> 00:16:43,878 Hey. Look at me. 138 00:16:56,057 --> 00:16:57,517 Look at me. 139 00:17:07,068 --> 00:17:08,778 I only want what is best for you. 140 00:17:10,822 --> 00:17:11,865 You know it. 141 00:17:15,160 --> 00:17:17,120 I knew that he could feel it. 142 00:17:18,371 --> 00:17:19,748 That pink muscle. 143 00:17:20,623 --> 00:17:21,624 Pushing 144 00:17:23,752 --> 00:17:25,003 and pushing. 145 00:17:26,588 --> 00:17:27,797 You should all be warming up. 146 00:17:27,881 --> 00:17:29,507 For everything what it’s worth. 147 00:17:34,095 --> 00:17:35,889 Hey, Lidia. 148 00:17:37,891 --> 00:17:39,058 Do you need help? 149 00:17:39,726 --> 00:17:41,436 I'm a college coach Texas Tech. 150 00:17:42,604 --> 00:17:44,063 It's nice to meet you. 151 00:17:44,481 --> 00:17:45,482 Come and chat. 152 00:17:46,316 --> 00:17:47,984 I would like having you on our team. 153 00:18:07,253 --> 00:18:08,254 Yes. 154 00:18:14,761 --> 00:18:16,513 I almost loved it. 155 00:18:23,228 --> 00:18:24,854 Let's go, Belle. 156 00:18:50,463 --> 00:18:53,258 Because I know you, Lidia. I know what you're doing. 157 00:18:53,341 --> 00:18:56,135 And it's disgusting. Disgusting ! Do you hear me? 158 00:18:56,219 --> 00:18:58,221 This is fucking disgusting, Lidia. 159 00:18:58,304 --> 00:19:00,765 You should be ashamed of your... 160 00:19:04,269 --> 00:19:05,353 Lidia! 161 00:19:09,274 --> 00:19:10,400 That's control. 162 00:19:11,484 --> 00:19:13,987 I control myself. 163 00:19:16,990 --> 00:19:19,117 You don't know how far I can go. 164 00:19:37,594 --> 00:19:41,097 My room contains the wet and dark of my body. 165 00:19:44,934 --> 00:19:46,477 It smells like my sweat... 166 00:19:48,187 --> 00:19:49,188 and chlorine. 167 00:20:02,327 --> 00:20:03,328 Hey. 168 00:20:03,453 --> 00:20:04,704 Can't sleep? 169 00:20:05,622 --> 00:20:06,664 Yes. Me neither. 170 00:20:17,592 --> 00:20:18,593 Come here. 171 00:20:19,052 --> 00:20:20,053 I want to talk to you. 172 00:20:25,725 --> 00:20:28,561 Listen. Sorry to have Been so hard on you lately. 173 00:20:30,688 --> 00:20:31,689 I believe that 174 00:20:33,650 --> 00:20:35,568 I really worry for you out there. 175 00:20:37,820 --> 00:20:40,573 Things will be different when you go to university. 176 00:20:41,658 --> 00:20:43,326 I want you to listen to me. 177 00:20:43,868 --> 00:20:46,663 He was telling what boys would do to me. 178 00:20:48,122 --> 00:20:49,749 How they would put their dirty hands 179 00:20:49,832 --> 00:20:52,168 under my skirt and would penetrate me with fingers. 180 00:20:53,294 --> 00:20:54,295 Would feel my breasts. 181 00:20:58,257 --> 00:20:59,258 Would suck them. 182 00:21:01,469 --> 00:21:03,805 How would boys be disgusting. 183 00:21:05,723 --> 00:21:06,808 Their hands, 184 00:21:07,558 --> 00:21:09,477 their hips seeking to enter and climb. 185 00:21:10,353 --> 00:21:11,479 And their penises. 186 00:21:12,689 --> 00:21:13,815 And his. 187 00:21:14,691 --> 00:21:16,192 Me sitting next to him, 188 00:21:17,694 --> 00:21:19,195 feeling its warmth 189 00:21:20,655 --> 00:21:21,990 without even looking. 190 00:22:21,716 --> 00:22:23,176 What are you doing here? 191 00:22:30,349 --> 00:22:32,226 What's wrong with you, huh? 192 00:22:36,856 --> 00:22:38,441 I want you to know that, uh, 193 00:22:42,945 --> 00:22:43,946 I love you. 194 00:23:01,506 --> 00:23:02,882 You are a fucking slut. 195 00:23:11,390 --> 00:23:13,309 You have something to tell me? 196 00:23:22,110 --> 00:23:24,028 Fuck you, asshole. 197 00:23:24,487 --> 00:23:25,613 What are you... 198 00:23:25,696 --> 00:23:27,115 what did you just say? 199 00:23:29,992 --> 00:23:31,077 Fuck you, 200 00:23:32,203 --> 00:23:33,454 asshole. 201 00:23:35,540 --> 00:23:37,083 Get out 202 00:23:37,583 --> 00:23:39,585 out of my way! 203 00:24:17,081 --> 00:24:18,249 Everything I was thinking about, 204 00:24:24,297 --> 00:24:26,716 it was my own pussy wide open, 205 00:24:31,929 --> 00:24:33,097 open like a mouth 206 00:24:34,640 --> 00:24:35,474 who screamed 207 00:24:35,558 --> 00:24:36,642 Mom. Mom ! 208 00:24:36,726 --> 00:24:37,852 Damn. 209 00:24:41,355 --> 00:24:43,316 Damn. 210 00:25:02,460 --> 00:25:04,879 I didn't know that a body A girl could do that. 211 00:25:08,007 --> 00:25:09,592 Ejaculate. 212 00:25:41,165 --> 00:25:42,750 My own thoughts. Mine. 213 00:25:42,833 --> 00:25:43,876 My own space. 214 00:25:43,960 --> 00:25:45,127 My own alcohol. My own breasts. 215 00:25:45,211 --> 00:25:47,088 My own days. My own nights. Mine. 216 00:25:47,296 --> 00:25:49,257 My own penis. My own alcohol. 217 00:25:49,340 --> 00:25:51,634 My own food. My thoughts. My own friends. My space. 218 00:25:51,717 --> 00:25:52,718 Mine. 219 00:25:54,929 --> 00:25:56,347 Mine. 220 00:25:59,267 --> 00:26:00,268 Mine. 221 00:26:01,644 --> 00:26:04,772 Mine, mine, mine, mine. My own freedom. 222 00:26:20,997 --> 00:26:21,998 Mine. 223 00:26:22,748 --> 00:26:23,749 Mine, mine, mine. 224 00:26:29,380 --> 00:26:31,299 Like something sunk so deep 225 00:26:31,382 --> 00:26:32,383 in a body, 226 00:26:34,302 --> 00:26:35,469 that it was bound to explode. 227 00:26:40,349 --> 00:26:41,809 Yuck! 228 00:26:46,480 --> 00:26:48,899 Where do you believe go? 229 00:26:49,859 --> 00:26:50,860 I know you. 230 00:26:54,488 --> 00:26:55,698 You're not going anywhere. 231 00:27:15,634 --> 00:27:19,305 A forty-nine year old minor and his daughter, 232 00:27:19,388 --> 00:27:21,140 Clementine 233 00:27:25,728 --> 00:27:28,731 Oh, my darling, oh, my darling 234 00:27:29,357 --> 00:27:32,693 Oh, my darling Clementine 235 00:27:32,985 --> 00:27:35,404 You were lost 236 00:27:35,488 --> 00:27:37,782 And gone forever 237 00:27:37,865 --> 00:27:39,617 Oh, my darling Clementine 238 00:27:46,624 --> 00:27:48,626 So far from my father. 239 00:27:48,793 --> 00:27:51,087 So far from my father. 240 00:27:51,295 --> 00:27:53,506 So far from my father. 241 00:27:53,589 --> 00:27:54,924 So far from my father. 242 00:28:06,602 --> 00:28:07,770 I just want... 243 00:28:17,363 --> 00:28:18,489 I love your hands. 244 00:28:20,658 --> 00:28:21,867 I like your voice. 245 00:28:24,620 --> 00:28:27,832 They are my father and my brother who have the real voices. 246 00:28:29,500 --> 00:28:31,710 I always hear them in my head. 247 00:28:32,878 --> 00:28:33,879 Really ? 248 00:28:35,840 --> 00:28:37,091 What do they say? 249 00:28:41,387 --> 00:28:43,222 They sing “Amazing Grace.” 250 00:28:47,726 --> 00:28:49,186 Voices of God. 251 00:28:50,479 --> 00:28:51,480 Fuck me. 252 00:28:53,107 --> 00:28:54,108 Yeah. 253 00:28:56,193 --> 00:28:57,945 No. Really. 254 00:28:59,405 --> 00:29:00,406 Fuck me. 255 00:29:11,250 --> 00:29:12,626 Poor Phillip. 256 00:29:15,421 --> 00:29:17,631 I wish I could come back go back and apologize. 257 00:29:31,854 --> 00:29:34,857 The way what’s happening 258 00:29:38,736 --> 00:29:40,821 And I know that peace will come 259 00:29:42,490 --> 00:29:45,284 Fuck you all! 260 00:29:45,367 --> 00:29:47,161 Eat me! 261 00:29:47,244 --> 00:29:49,205 I searched 262 00:29:50,748 --> 00:29:53,167 Dolphins 263 00:29:53,250 --> 00:29:55,920 A real James Taylor, 264 00:29:56,587 --> 00:29:59,840 who sings his heart here in Texas! 265 00:30:01,592 --> 00:30:04,428 And sometimes I wonder 266 00:30:05,596 --> 00:30:09,975 Are you thinking of me? 267 00:30:14,188 --> 00:30:16,899 This world will not change maybe never 268 00:30:20,569 --> 00:30:24,073 The way it happens 269 00:30:27,326 --> 00:30:29,578 And I know that peace will come 270 00:30:36,168 --> 00:30:38,671 Lidia. Why do you still do this? 271 00:30:45,427 --> 00:30:47,304 It's funny. Come on. It's... 272 00:30:47,680 --> 00:30:49,139 Funny! You know it. 273 00:30:53,143 --> 00:30:55,187 What a wimp! 274 00:30:56,021 --> 00:30:58,107 Come on. Learn to collect a... 275 00:30:58,190 --> 00:31:00,985 joke. You are so fucking sensitive. 276 00:31:04,989 --> 00:31:06,490 It is surely 277 00:31:06,657 --> 00:31:08,325 one of the most pathetic things that I have seen. 278 00:31:12,204 --> 00:31:13,289 This is what I... 279 00:31:14,999 --> 00:31:16,667 That's what I'm talking about. 280 00:31:16,750 --> 00:31:17,960 It's like... 281 00:31:18,168 --> 00:31:20,879 like talking to a whore door handle. 282 00:31:20,963 --> 00:31:22,756 Why don't you say anything? 283 00:31:24,091 --> 00:31:25,634 Say anything. 284 00:31:25,718 --> 00:31:27,761 I'm a fucking bitch, 285 00:31:27,845 --> 00:31:30,431 so why don't you do nothing against that? 286 00:31:33,225 --> 00:31:34,935 You're not a bitch. 287 00:31:37,813 --> 00:31:39,064 Fuck you, Phillip! 288 00:31:41,567 --> 00:31:43,902 You don't even know me don't, damn it, Phillip. 289 00:32:08,761 --> 00:32:09,928 "Phillip" 290 00:32:11,305 --> 00:32:13,098 means “friend of horses”. 291 00:32:15,851 --> 00:32:16,852 Damn. 292 00:32:17,853 --> 00:32:19,480 Or “fraternity”. 293 00:32:31,075 --> 00:32:33,077 Wake up, asshole! 294 00:32:50,135 --> 00:32:52,513 Hey, Lids. Do you want to leave here? 295 00:32:53,055 --> 00:32:55,641 It's okay, girl. I'm bringing her back. 296 00:33:01,063 --> 00:33:03,023 Hey, girl. Close this door. 297 00:33:03,857 --> 00:33:05,859 Farm this fucking door! 298 00:33:08,112 --> 00:33:09,863 I didn't see you at training. 299 00:33:10,989 --> 00:33:12,324 Yeah. I failed. 300 00:33:14,993 --> 00:33:16,120 It's cool. 301 00:33:29,049 --> 00:33:31,969 I can still feel my face. 302 00:33:43,063 --> 00:33:44,773 The addiction is in me, that's for sure. 303 00:33:47,317 --> 00:33:49,903 But I want to describe you something else. 304 00:33:50,946 --> 00:33:52,030 Something smaller. 305 00:33:54,408 --> 00:33:55,576 It's a smaller word. 306 00:33:57,911 --> 00:33:58,912 Mom? 307 00:34:01,874 --> 00:34:04,334 So small it could traveling in a blood vessel. 308 00:34:09,840 --> 00:34:11,467 Go away, Belle. 309 00:34:27,107 --> 00:34:28,692 Go away, Belle. 310 00:34:34,323 --> 00:34:35,449 GOOD. 311 00:34:39,203 --> 00:34:40,454 Stay away. 312 00:34:42,080 --> 00:34:43,791 It's not for you. 313 00:34:46,210 --> 00:34:48,086 I'm not talking about anything. 314 00:34:50,422 --> 00:34:52,299 I'm not talking about anything. 315 00:35:02,059 --> 00:35:03,977 I'm not talking about anything. 316 00:35:11,568 --> 00:35:12,611 Dorothy? 317 00:35:15,239 --> 00:35:16,865 Get up. Get up. 318 00:35:44,476 --> 00:35:45,477 I'm sorry! 319 00:35:52,359 --> 00:35:53,360 I'm sorry. 320 00:35:55,404 --> 00:35:56,405 Yeah. 321 00:35:57,406 --> 00:35:58,407 Lidia, 322 00:35:59,992 --> 00:36:01,285 you can talk to us. 323 00:36:02,494 --> 00:36:03,495 It helps. 324 00:36:04,788 --> 00:36:05,789 Believe me. 325 00:36:21,430 --> 00:36:23,348 I'm not talking about anything. 326 00:36:25,392 --> 00:36:28,061 You know, I always like to say, uh... 327 00:36:30,230 --> 00:36:33,066 find meaning in the traffic of life 328 00:36:34,443 --> 00:36:37,613 by eliminating spiritual barriers. 329 00:36:58,926 --> 00:36:59,927 Uh, 330 00:37:02,846 --> 00:37:04,139 I'm proud of you. 331 00:37:06,767 --> 00:37:07,768 See? 332 00:37:11,480 --> 00:37:12,481 Yeah. 333 00:37:14,149 --> 00:37:15,150 Yeah. 334 00:37:30,374 --> 00:37:31,458 Do you want to marry me? 335 00:37:58,860 --> 00:37:59,861 All right. 336 00:38:03,407 --> 00:38:06,660 And the children have their dreams 337 00:38:07,119 --> 00:38:09,788 to hang on 338 00:38:12,624 --> 00:38:14,334 And how they fly 339 00:38:15,127 --> 00:38:17,629 Take us to the moon 340 00:38:19,715 --> 00:38:23,260 Yes, they come from you 341 00:38:25,012 --> 00:38:27,973 They come from you 342 00:38:29,725 --> 00:38:33,353 And they come from you 343 00:38:36,106 --> 00:38:39,109 And the women have themselves 344 00:38:39,484 --> 00:38:41,486 to hang on 345 00:38:44,823 --> 00:38:46,742 And how they fly 346 00:38:47,242 --> 00:38:49,953 Take me by surprise 347 00:38:51,955 --> 00:38:55,542 They float from me 348 00:38:56,126 --> 00:38:59,921 They float from me 349 00:39:01,548 --> 00:39:05,427 And they float from me 350 00:39:37,584 --> 00:39:39,002 Darling. 351 00:39:39,211 --> 00:39:40,212 You were great. 352 00:39:40,587 --> 00:39:42,506 You were great! 353 00:40:09,324 --> 00:40:11,243 I made you some tea. 354 00:40:11,326 --> 00:40:14,079 I don't want it. What are we going to do? 355 00:40:17,582 --> 00:40:18,834 Lidia, 356 00:40:19,334 --> 00:40:20,669 I love you. 357 00:40:22,546 --> 00:40:25,590 And whatever you want to do, I will support you. 358 00:40:30,637 --> 00:40:31,721 Is that all? 359 00:40:36,893 --> 00:40:39,312 I need more than nothing 360 00:40:39,521 --> 00:40:42,315 of the most passive man of this fucking planet! 361 00:40:58,415 --> 00:41:00,250 Sorry. I was a little sick. 362 00:41:05,338 --> 00:41:06,923 You don't want anything. 363 00:41:07,257 --> 00:41:10,218 And your refusal to want anything is killing me! 364 00:41:11,344 --> 00:41:13,847 - What were you thinking? - I don't know. 365 00:41:14,055 --> 00:41:17,225 I don't know. I don't know. It's fucking impossible! 366 00:41:17,976 --> 00:41:20,604 I can't stand how nice he is... 367 00:41:20,687 --> 00:41:22,772 I can't stand how nice he is! 368 00:41:22,856 --> 00:41:26,359 But... I couldn't have kill him either. 369 00:41:28,820 --> 00:41:29,946 I thought... 370 00:41:32,157 --> 00:41:34,201 maybe there is a world where I... 371 00:41:35,952 --> 00:41:37,037 I come and 372 00:41:38,288 --> 00:41:39,206 I live with you 373 00:41:39,289 --> 00:41:40,373 in Eugene 374 00:41:40,457 --> 00:41:41,499 and I take lessons 375 00:41:41,583 --> 00:41:43,293 where you teach and... 376 00:41:43,585 --> 00:41:46,755 I don't know. Maybe that we could found a small 377 00:41:49,507 --> 00:41:50,800 family. 378 00:41:56,723 --> 00:41:58,725 - Yes. - Because I believe that... 379 00:41:58,850 --> 00:42:03,146 my life with him will be like one fucking sad country song. 380 00:42:03,230 --> 00:42:04,898 - And that's the only thing... - Lidia, Lidia, I... 381 00:42:04,981 --> 00:42:06,608 I said yes. 382 00:42:07,442 --> 00:42:08,735 Come home. 383 00:42:13,823 --> 00:42:14,824 Okay. 384 00:42:17,953 --> 00:42:18,954 Cool. 385 00:42:21,456 --> 00:42:23,541 Because she left me once 386 00:42:24,709 --> 00:42:25,961 to save his own life. 387 00:42:35,095 --> 00:42:36,680 What are you make there behind? 388 00:42:36,763 --> 00:42:38,348 Are you fiddling? 389 00:42:40,141 --> 00:42:41,142 What ? 390 00:42:41,935 --> 00:42:43,812 I take them to the most beautiful landscape of the world, 391 00:42:43,895 --> 00:42:45,105 and they... they 392 00:42:45,188 --> 00:42:46,273 groping each other? 393 00:42:48,942 --> 00:42:51,152 Look through this fucking window! 394 00:43:09,296 --> 00:43:10,297 Claudia, 395 00:43:11,464 --> 00:43:14,259 take the hacksaw under your mother's seat. 396 00:43:14,467 --> 00:43:16,094 Come on ! Here we go. 397 00:43:41,328 --> 00:43:43,204 Here, my darling. 398 00:43:43,413 --> 00:43:44,414 To feed you. 399 00:43:45,957 --> 00:43:47,208 To feed you. 400 00:43:49,461 --> 00:43:50,587 You don't want it? 401 00:43:58,762 --> 00:44:00,305 Come on, sweetie. Just a little sip. 402 00:44:00,388 --> 00:44:02,724 It'll warm you up. Mmm! 403 00:44:18,990 --> 00:44:21,993 Blowing bubbles soft and fine... 404 00:44:33,338 --> 00:44:35,173 Well, thank goodness. 405 00:44:42,680 --> 00:44:44,015 Where is the tree? 406 00:44:47,060 --> 00:44:48,061 Just... 407 00:44:56,069 --> 00:44:57,070 There. That’s the image. 408 00:45:09,499 --> 00:45:11,251 Welcome home. 409 00:45:16,714 --> 00:45:17,715 Between. 410 00:45:18,383 --> 00:45:19,509 I'll take care of it. 411 00:45:19,592 --> 00:45:21,052 For what ? Because I'm pregnant? 412 00:45:21,136 --> 00:45:22,137 Yes. 413 00:45:47,912 --> 00:45:48,913 Hold. 414 00:45:49,456 --> 00:45:50,665 THANKS. 415 00:45:55,044 --> 00:45:56,171 Damn. 416 00:46:04,012 --> 00:46:05,263 Thanks, Claudia. 417 00:46:14,647 --> 00:46:17,609 Do you remember when you made me do things? 418 00:46:19,986 --> 00:46:21,362 Like... 419 00:46:21,988 --> 00:46:24,616 “Here. Take a bite of this apple.” 420 00:46:24,824 --> 00:46:26,701 You pushed it into my mouth. 421 00:46:29,370 --> 00:46:31,247 "Here. Smell this ashtray." 422 00:46:31,456 --> 00:46:34,042 "Blow on it. One, two..." 423 00:46:34,125 --> 00:46:36,586 Ashes on my fucking face. 424 00:46:41,090 --> 00:46:42,675 I would have done anything. 425 00:46:47,597 --> 00:46:48,932 You were legendary to me. 426 00:46:53,186 --> 00:46:54,479 I remember when I was going down 427 00:46:54,562 --> 00:46:56,022 after you have moved into the basement. 428 00:46:57,190 --> 00:47:02,278 And... I now realize how clever that was, but 429 00:47:04,781 --> 00:47:06,699 I watched them all your business 430 00:47:06,783 --> 00:47:08,660 and I touched them. 431 00:47:09,786 --> 00:47:11,287 Once I found 432 00:47:11,454 --> 00:47:13,039 a razor blade in your bag. 433 00:47:13,122 --> 00:47:15,375 I cut myself with it. 434 00:47:15,833 --> 00:47:18,002 It made urinating painful. 435 00:47:31,724 --> 00:47:32,976 I... 436 00:47:35,853 --> 00:47:36,854 I know that 437 00:47:37,105 --> 00:47:38,106 it's a... 438 00:47:39,107 --> 00:47:40,567 sacrifice. 439 00:47:42,569 --> 00:47:43,820 No... 440 00:47:45,738 --> 00:47:46,990 it's just that you... 441 00:47:49,492 --> 00:47:51,035 you were so little... 442 00:47:59,043 --> 00:48:00,044 yes. 443 00:48:04,632 --> 00:48:05,633 Well, 444 00:48:08,344 --> 00:48:11,097 it's a way to Frankenstein your life. 445 00:48:20,356 --> 00:48:21,357 Maybe... 446 00:48:21,858 --> 00:48:24,068 that I was waiting for this. 447 00:48:48,968 --> 00:48:51,220 Yes. Breathe. 448 00:48:52,972 --> 00:48:54,682 I know. Come on. 449 00:49:01,189 --> 00:49:02,190 You... 450 00:49:02,398 --> 00:49:03,399 can... 451 00:49:03,775 --> 00:49:04,859 do it. 452 00:49:47,193 --> 00:49:48,194 Where is she? 453 00:49:50,947 --> 00:49:51,948 Can I hold it? 454 00:49:53,616 --> 00:49:54,617 Um, yes. 455 00:49:59,163 --> 00:50:02,667 One second. We just clean it. 456 00:50:26,065 --> 00:50:27,191 Her lips are pink. 457 00:50:30,445 --> 00:50:31,446 They are pink. 458 00:51:47,814 --> 00:51:48,773 Just... 459 00:51:50,817 --> 00:51:52,443 throw it as far as possible. 460 00:52:17,844 --> 00:52:19,846 It's not funny. 461 00:52:23,474 --> 00:52:24,475 Pick it up. 462 00:52:44,203 --> 00:52:45,204 My God ! 463 00:53:17,945 --> 00:53:19,071 Sorry. I know. 464 00:53:57,944 --> 00:54:00,488 Look at. She's all over you. 465 00:54:02,865 --> 00:54:04,951 You're fucking laughing. 466 00:54:38,359 --> 00:54:41,278 What lived and died between us 467 00:54:43,072 --> 00:54:43,990 haunts me 468 00:54:44,073 --> 00:54:45,282 II - Under the blue 469 00:54:45,449 --> 00:54:46,450 again. 470 00:54:50,204 --> 00:54:51,664 Damn, big girl. 471 00:54:52,081 --> 00:54:54,083 What are you, a mermaid? 472 00:54:55,710 --> 00:54:56,711 Yes. 473 00:55:02,216 --> 00:55:03,634 You have something to say? 474 00:55:05,720 --> 00:55:06,721 No way. 475 00:55:09,056 --> 00:55:10,141 Come on. 476 00:55:11,851 --> 00:55:14,687 You deserve this. You don't want to come with me? 477 00:55:15,730 --> 00:55:18,441 It's crazy. I am not not even in college. 478 00:55:18,524 --> 00:55:19,900 I'm just hanging out at the department of English. 479 00:55:19,984 --> 00:55:21,777 Do you think Kesey gives a damn 480 00:55:21,861 --> 00:55:23,279 university rules? 481 00:55:23,362 --> 00:55:25,281 You will regret not doing it. 482 00:55:25,364 --> 00:55:26,615 They won't let me I didn't even register. 483 00:55:27,491 --> 00:55:29,827 Bullshit. I already have him talked about you. 484 00:55:30,453 --> 00:55:31,454 The... 485 00:55:32,580 --> 00:55:33,622 These... 486 00:55:36,709 --> 00:55:37,835 He will love you. 487 00:55:43,215 --> 00:55:45,968 You don't want to write a novel with Ken Kesey? 488 00:56:06,822 --> 00:56:07,823 Hello everyone. 489 00:56:08,324 --> 00:56:10,242 Um, hi everyone. Hi. 490 00:56:14,205 --> 00:56:15,206 You are stupid. 491 00:56:15,873 --> 00:56:17,958 Hi. Um, this is Lidia. 492 00:56:20,377 --> 00:56:21,712 - Say hello. - Good morning. 493 00:56:24,924 --> 00:56:26,092 Well, hello. 494 00:56:26,884 --> 00:56:28,260 What do we have here? 495 00:56:28,427 --> 00:56:30,596 A little AAA? 496 00:56:33,974 --> 00:56:35,726 I know what happened to you. 497 00:56:39,355 --> 00:56:40,856 Death is a fucking bitch. 498 00:56:53,327 --> 00:56:54,328 Shit. 499 00:56:55,121 --> 00:56:56,163 -Jeff? - Yes. 500 00:56:56,247 --> 00:56:57,623 You think be able to ride one? 501 00:56:57,706 --> 00:57:00,334 I always hate being in a room full of writers. 502 00:57:00,417 --> 00:57:01,460 Of course. 503 00:57:11,011 --> 00:57:12,388 The chair will fit just fine. 504 00:57:13,889 --> 00:57:15,641 I want you all... 505 00:57:21,564 --> 00:57:23,357 I want you to be all winners. 506 00:57:24,191 --> 00:57:25,359 I want 507 00:57:25,943 --> 00:57:27,486 that you are warriors. 508 00:57:28,863 --> 00:57:29,864 Warriors. 509 00:57:30,739 --> 00:57:32,575 I will give you the warrior test. 510 00:57:33,075 --> 00:57:34,326 Shit floats. 511 00:57:35,119 --> 00:57:36,287 The cream rises. 512 00:57:36,620 --> 00:57:39,373 Shit floats. Jerry Rubin. 513 00:57:41,667 --> 00:57:42,960 The cream rises. 514 00:57:50,843 --> 00:57:51,844 Ferlinghetti. 515 00:57:54,847 --> 00:57:55,848 Lord Buckley. 516 00:57:56,932 --> 00:57:58,225 Lenny Bruce. 517 00:57:59,393 --> 00:58:00,477 The big ones. 518 00:58:02,605 --> 00:58:04,023 I want you to be great. 519 00:58:06,650 --> 00:58:07,902 Damn, someone 520 00:58:09,278 --> 00:58:12,156 must create our culture for the next 50 years. 521 00:58:12,323 --> 00:58:13,741 And I want it to be you. 522 00:58:13,824 --> 00:58:15,409 Good. There are only two rules. 523 00:58:15,492 --> 00:58:16,911 One, 524 00:58:16,994 --> 00:58:18,913 don't talk about the plot of our novel 525 00:58:18,996 --> 00:58:21,373 to anyone outside of this class. 526 00:58:22,374 --> 00:58:25,502 Two, I represent 50% of the class, 527 00:58:26,086 --> 00:58:28,589 so we write only together 528 00:58:29,757 --> 00:58:31,675 because we will publish 529 00:58:31,759 --> 00:58:33,385 or we will perish together. 530 00:58:40,392 --> 00:58:41,894 Nelson Algren said: 531 00:58:43,604 --> 00:58:45,105 "The work of the writer 532 00:58:46,357 --> 00:58:48,984 is to bring down the judge in the dock, 533 00:58:50,611 --> 00:58:51,737 to do 534 00:58:52,321 --> 00:58:55,950 feel the Almighty what it's like to be at the bottom." 535 00:58:57,201 --> 00:58:58,327 He'll be fine. 536 00:59:00,371 --> 00:59:01,997 Weed has never killed anyone. 537 00:59:03,374 --> 00:59:05,125 So go for it. 538 00:59:06,752 --> 00:59:07,920 NOW. 539 00:59:08,921 --> 00:59:10,673 Write weird sentences. 540 00:59:10,756 --> 00:59:12,758 Hey ! Where are you? 541 00:59:13,842 --> 00:59:16,762 You can't take of Quaalude before class. 542 00:59:17,513 --> 00:59:19,556 Now disappear in your imagination. 543 00:59:19,640 --> 00:59:20,641 Come on ! 544 00:59:21,141 --> 00:59:22,643 Disappear into your imagination. 545 00:59:22,851 --> 00:59:24,853 It's only you and this pen in the room. 546 00:59:30,025 --> 00:59:31,193 Better. 547 00:59:33,654 --> 00:59:34,822 And there you have it! 548 00:59:35,072 --> 00:59:36,865 Here we are. 549 00:59:40,577 --> 00:59:41,704 "A Hells Angel I am" "This is why I am a GOD" 550 00:59:41,787 --> 00:59:42,997 I wrote "the Box Demonic” here. 551 00:59:44,373 --> 00:59:46,458 This piece is a creative piece. 552 00:59:46,709 --> 00:59:47,876 A creative space. 553 00:59:48,085 --> 00:59:49,086 Hey, Bennett, 554 00:59:49,712 --> 00:59:51,797 you didn't bring from Quaalude, huh? 555 00:59:51,880 --> 00:59:54,842 This kind of drug makes you in your body, 556 00:59:55,092 --> 00:59:56,176 not in your mind. 557 00:59:57,428 --> 01:00:00,472 Stay with the acid, psilocybin, San Pedro... 558 01:00:01,598 --> 01:00:03,976 something that dissolve your ego 559 01:00:04,226 --> 01:00:06,186 so that you hear your inner voice. 560 01:00:07,479 --> 01:00:09,356 And you write from this voice. 561 01:00:11,984 --> 01:00:14,069 You want your voice appears clearly. 562 01:00:18,907 --> 01:00:20,451 Oh, Jesus. 563 01:00:23,287 --> 01:00:25,164 This shouldn't happen. 564 01:00:26,081 --> 01:00:27,833 I have the knees of a wrestler. 565 01:00:30,085 --> 01:00:31,253 Good. 566 01:00:31,712 --> 01:00:33,922 Let's go out first sunset. 567 01:00:34,715 --> 01:00:35,716 I want 568 01:00:37,426 --> 01:00:39,178 that you meet someone. 569 01:00:42,681 --> 01:00:43,682 Come on ! 570 01:00:44,058 --> 01:00:45,059 Fuck you, God! 571 01:00:47,019 --> 01:00:48,729 God was wrong in the Commandments. 572 01:00:48,812 --> 01:00:50,272 I think there are eleven. 573 01:00:50,356 --> 01:00:52,816 And the first should be mercy. 574 01:00:53,025 --> 01:00:55,361 - Hey. - Lord, have mercy! 575 01:00:56,153 --> 01:00:58,447 Imagine if everyone had pity for others, 576 01:00:58,530 --> 01:00:59,948 where we would be today. 577 01:01:00,032 --> 01:01:02,117 You see a man in the street who needs money. 578 01:01:02,242 --> 01:01:05,329 Give it to him. Give it to him. Have mercy. He needs it. 579 01:01:06,455 --> 01:01:08,248 He wouldn't ask if he didn't need it. 580 01:01:10,626 --> 01:01:11,627 Mercy. 581 01:01:13,045 --> 01:01:14,713 Hire me to rewrite the... 582 01:01:15,923 --> 01:01:16,924 Bible. 583 01:01:39,071 --> 01:01:41,156 What are you, some kind of mermaid? 584 01:01:50,457 --> 01:01:51,458 Yes. 585 01:02:04,054 --> 01:02:06,390 You know, when Jed died, boy, 586 01:02:07,474 --> 01:02:09,560 I wanted to cease to exist. 587 01:02:18,026 --> 01:02:21,822 And everyone who spoke to me said absurd things. 588 01:02:25,492 --> 01:02:27,202 Or didn't say anything at all. 589 01:02:41,758 --> 01:02:43,802 no one understands anymore death today. 590 01:02:48,765 --> 01:02:49,933 It used to be sacred. 591 01:02:50,684 --> 01:02:51,685 So sacred. 592 01:02:56,940 --> 01:02:57,941 Shit. 593 01:03:00,110 --> 01:03:02,863 Nobody is big enough to bear what happens to us. 594 01:03:06,742 --> 01:03:07,993 Nobody is big enough 595 01:03:09,703 --> 01:03:11,288 to bear what happens to us. 596 01:03:17,753 --> 01:03:19,254 Do you have something to say? 597 01:03:28,096 --> 01:03:29,223 It's in your hands. 598 01:03:53,622 --> 01:03:56,792 Everything about my father was in his hands. 599 01:04:01,964 --> 01:04:04,091 Everything is question of coordination. 600 01:04:06,760 --> 01:04:09,805 A perfect dance balanced from 601 01:04:09,888 --> 01:04:11,098 light and shadow. 602 01:04:12,724 --> 01:04:15,227 Before my father be my father, 603 01:04:16,228 --> 01:04:17,646 he was an artist. 604 01:04:17,729 --> 01:04:20,983 Your father won a prize 605 01:04:21,358 --> 01:04:22,568 for this drawing. 606 01:04:25,487 --> 01:04:27,948 Before my father be an artist, 607 01:04:28,740 --> 01:04:29,825 he was an athlete. 608 01:04:32,119 --> 01:04:33,954 Before my father be my father, 609 01:04:37,457 --> 01:04:38,458 he was handsome. 610 01:04:39,668 --> 01:04:40,669 And her too. 611 01:04:41,461 --> 01:04:43,422 Before my father be my father, 612 01:04:44,965 --> 01:04:45,966 he was a boy. 613 01:04:46,717 --> 01:04:47,843 Just a boy 614 01:04:48,719 --> 01:04:49,928 including his own mother 615 01:04:50,679 --> 01:04:52,431 cut out his tongue. 616 01:04:58,645 --> 01:05:00,272 Before you hate him, 617 01:05:02,357 --> 01:05:03,358 I loved him. 618 01:05:09,531 --> 01:05:10,532 Look ahead. 619 01:05:10,699 --> 01:05:12,034 If you don't look where are you going, 620 01:05:12,117 --> 01:05:13,285 You're going to screw up, understand? 621 01:05:13,368 --> 01:05:14,494 When you arrive down the hill, 622 01:05:14,578 --> 01:05:16,622 brake just enough to turn. 623 01:05:16,705 --> 01:05:17,706 All right ? 624 01:05:21,585 --> 01:05:22,961 Go ahead. 625 01:05:23,211 --> 01:05:24,630 Keep your eyes on the road! 626 01:05:24,713 --> 01:05:25,881 Go on. 627 01:05:26,465 --> 01:05:27,591 Keep your head up! 628 01:05:32,721 --> 01:05:34,014 Keep your eyes on the road. 629 01:05:34,097 --> 01:05:35,849 You have to brake! 630 01:05:40,437 --> 01:05:41,438 Mike? 631 01:05:41,688 --> 01:05:42,689 Mike. 632 01:05:43,357 --> 01:05:44,358 Mike! 633 01:05:44,691 --> 01:05:46,610 - Take a flashlight. - For what ? 634 01:05:46,693 --> 01:05:47,986 I believe that she hurt herself down there. 635 01:05:48,070 --> 01:05:50,697 - What ?! What happened?! 636 01:05:50,781 --> 01:05:51,990 Farm this fucking door. 637 01:05:52,949 --> 01:05:53,909 Mm, yeah. 638 01:05:53,992 --> 01:05:55,452 You're done this chapter? 639 01:06:01,625 --> 01:06:03,001 Yes. 640 01:06:11,385 --> 01:06:15,514 "ALL THAT I WAS, IT WAS MY BODY THAT BLEEDED" 641 01:06:23,438 --> 01:06:25,857 Hi. Good morning. 642 01:06:31,071 --> 01:06:33,740 I am a writer. 643 01:06:48,505 --> 01:06:49,548 THANKS. 644 01:06:50,340 --> 01:06:51,508 THANKS. 645 01:06:51,717 --> 01:06:53,885 We are brought together because, 646 01:06:54,010 --> 01:06:55,804 we want to see the results. 647 01:06:56,096 --> 01:07:00,392 We want to be witnesses of the results of this experiment, 648 01:07:00,642 --> 01:07:04,896 a collaborative novel written by us. 649 01:07:05,981 --> 01:07:07,774 Please let's welcome 650 01:07:08,024 --> 01:07:10,652 the first of not-so-merry pranksters 651 01:07:10,861 --> 01:07:13,488 to go on stage to present 652 01:07:14,823 --> 01:07:15,824 “Caves”. 653 01:07:16,825 --> 01:07:18,493 Lidia, get in. 654 01:07:22,122 --> 01:07:23,540 You're going to tear everything up. 655 01:07:44,478 --> 01:07:45,479 Good morning. 656 01:07:45,854 --> 01:07:47,731 My thigh, behind the knee. 657 01:07:47,939 --> 01:07:49,316 - So. - You too ? 658 01:07:49,399 --> 01:07:50,942 -Thank you for coming. - The line of my buttocks. 659 01:07:51,026 --> 01:07:52,736 Behind the knees, and it's just like... 660 01:07:52,819 --> 01:07:54,029 Lidia's father. 661 01:07:55,322 --> 01:07:57,824 What to say? I am a great admirer. 662 01:07:58,325 --> 01:07:59,910 Mike. Is that right? 663 01:08:00,660 --> 01:08:01,912 That's it. 664 01:08:02,537 --> 01:08:04,414 Glad you came. 665 01:08:05,290 --> 01:08:08,210 Lidia and I saw “One Flew Over the Cuckoo’s Nest” 666 01:08:08,293 --> 01:08:09,878 and "And sometimes I feel like a big idea" together, 667 01:08:09,961 --> 01:08:10,921 and it's great. 668 01:08:11,004 --> 01:08:12,839 Finally, awesome books. 669 01:08:15,634 --> 01:08:16,968 You know, Mike, 670 01:08:18,470 --> 01:08:19,513 Lidia here, 671 01:08:21,389 --> 01:08:23,642 she can do a box. 672 01:08:27,854 --> 01:08:29,564 Do you want me to sign it for you? 673 01:08:34,110 --> 01:08:35,487 Thanks for coming, Dad. 674 01:08:41,243 --> 01:08:42,244 All right. 675 01:08:42,953 --> 01:08:43,954 At... 676 01:08:44,621 --> 01:08:45,622 Mike? 677 01:08:46,623 --> 01:08:47,624 Please. 678 01:08:49,459 --> 01:08:50,460 “To Mike. 679 01:08:51,461 --> 01:08:52,462 Be 680 01:08:54,756 --> 01:08:55,757 courageous." 681 01:09:05,642 --> 01:09:06,768 There you go, Mike. 682 01:09:11,523 --> 01:09:12,649 There you go, my dear. 683 01:09:13,525 --> 01:09:14,526 Yes. 684 01:09:35,338 --> 01:09:37,632 I saw a lot of writers coming and going. 685 01:09:41,720 --> 01:09:42,888 You have what it takes. 686 01:09:49,603 --> 01:09:50,937 I have something for you. 687 01:09:51,479 --> 01:09:52,480 Hold. 688 01:09:54,608 --> 01:09:55,609 Hold. 689 01:09:58,570 --> 01:10:01,656 It comes from the beach the most spiritual in the world. 690 01:10:03,617 --> 01:10:04,618 Hold this. 691 01:10:06,828 --> 01:10:08,038 You can handle anything. 692 01:10:11,458 --> 01:10:13,335 You will endure everything, my big girl. 693 01:10:20,175 --> 01:10:21,176 So, 694 01:10:22,719 --> 01:10:23,887 so what's next? 695 01:10:27,223 --> 01:10:28,558 - What's next? - The rest. 696 01:10:28,642 --> 01:10:30,143 What's coming afterwards? After ? 697 01:10:38,902 --> 01:10:41,279 I want to write “The Sound and the Fury”. 698 01:10:52,749 --> 01:10:54,167 Of course it is, darling. 699 01:10:56,044 --> 01:10:57,170 Oh dear. 700 01:11:02,592 --> 01:11:04,594 Hold. Launch it and let's see if I can catch it. 701 01:11:04,803 --> 01:11:05,804 - Ready ? - Yes. 702 01:11:07,097 --> 01:11:08,473 - Oh! - Shit ! 703 01:11:12,686 --> 01:11:15,355 It depended a lot because he enters. 704 01:11:18,858 --> 01:11:20,694 It's not a metaphor. 705 01:11:21,820 --> 01:11:23,989 - All right. - To hell with metaphors. 706 01:11:24,572 --> 01:11:25,490 All right. 707 01:11:25,573 --> 01:11:27,367 It's just a stone that fell. 708 01:11:36,543 --> 01:11:38,837 I'm going to look the stone and go pee. 709 01:11:38,920 --> 01:11:40,714 All right. 710 01:11:40,797 --> 01:11:42,799 Oh yes. So. You have it. 711 01:11:46,678 --> 01:11:49,305 It’s the last time I saw him. 712 01:11:49,931 --> 01:11:51,641 You know how to write, my big girl! 713 01:11:51,933 --> 01:11:55,103 I think that he drowned. 714 01:11:57,856 --> 01:12:01,067 III - Humidity 715 01:12:01,818 --> 01:12:04,112 Caddy wants to fuck. 716 01:12:04,320 --> 01:12:05,739 She is insatiable. 717 01:12:06,239 --> 01:12:09,909 And because the boy next door has a huge bump 718 01:12:09,993 --> 01:12:11,953 in his pants and a sound coming out of him 719 01:12:12,037 --> 01:12:13,121 rather than a language, 720 01:12:13,204 --> 01:12:14,622 she goes to his house 721 01:12:14,789 --> 01:12:16,541 and remove all his clothes, 722 01:12:16,624 --> 01:12:18,334 so that he finally fucks her 723 01:12:19,461 --> 01:12:20,962 and crushes it. 724 01:12:23,089 --> 01:12:25,383 He fucks her to death, 725 01:12:25,467 --> 01:12:27,427 and she loves it! 726 01:12:28,053 --> 01:12:31,264 She laughs until she cries, and an ambulance must come. 727 01:12:31,347 --> 01:12:32,474 But it's too late. 728 01:12:34,059 --> 01:12:35,935 Here is "The Noise and the Fury. 729 01:12:37,520 --> 01:12:38,521 Trivial. 730 01:12:40,065 --> 01:12:42,984 Look, I've already read “The Sound and the Fury”. 731 01:12:43,068 --> 01:12:45,445 Rewrite Faulkner, It’s a student thing. 732 01:12:50,658 --> 01:12:52,410 Maybe try something original. 733 01:12:55,288 --> 01:12:56,289 My God, 734 01:12:56,790 --> 01:12:57,791 I hate them. 735 01:13:00,210 --> 01:13:01,753 What the hell does he know? 736 01:13:02,420 --> 01:13:03,505 It's original. 737 01:13:04,005 --> 01:13:05,715 It's a fucking pastiche. 738 01:13:09,219 --> 01:13:11,805 You want to go on the coast? I took a room. 739 01:13:12,305 --> 01:13:13,598 Hi, Hannah. 740 01:13:13,807 --> 01:13:15,391 We will rather work on it this weekend. 741 01:13:15,475 --> 01:13:16,518 - All right. - Come on. 742 01:13:16,601 --> 01:13:17,852 Is your fly open? 743 01:13:18,853 --> 01:13:19,854 Lids. 744 01:13:21,481 --> 01:13:23,441 - What is that? - Oh ! 745 01:13:27,112 --> 01:13:28,321 I fucking dare you. 746 01:13:31,157 --> 01:13:32,158 Come on. 747 01:13:33,159 --> 01:13:34,202 Anything. 748 01:13:35,453 --> 01:13:36,704 Any time. 749 01:13:37,831 --> 01:13:39,666 Anywhere. Anything. Anytime. 750 01:13:39,749 --> 01:13:40,875 Be careful! 751 01:13:40,959 --> 01:13:42,752 Feel nothing 752 01:13:42,836 --> 01:13:44,379 at all. 753 01:13:47,841 --> 01:13:50,009 I'm going look for wood. 754 01:13:50,093 --> 01:13:52,053 Don't do anything I wouldn't do. 755 01:14:14,742 --> 01:14:15,994 It's like... 756 01:14:17,954 --> 01:14:19,080 a trip to fuck? 757 01:14:24,377 --> 01:14:25,378 What ? 758 01:14:27,964 --> 01:14:30,175 I have never... pussy licking. 759 01:15:39,661 --> 01:15:41,829 I wanted stay like that. 760 01:15:50,964 --> 01:15:52,799 Out of all words. 761 01:15:58,888 --> 01:16:00,765 In the wet one without a name. 762 01:16:29,252 --> 01:16:30,461 Are you okay? 763 01:17:17,216 --> 01:17:18,760 I love you, Lids. 764 01:17:29,687 --> 01:17:30,855 I really love you. 765 01:17:52,210 --> 01:17:53,211 Yes. 766 01:17:54,295 --> 01:17:55,463 See you later. 767 01:18:09,894 --> 01:18:11,145 In the water, 768 01:18:12,480 --> 01:18:13,481 like in the books, 769 01:18:16,859 --> 01:18:18,361 you can leave your life. 770 01:18:41,467 --> 01:18:42,510 I have it. 771 01:18:42,593 --> 01:18:43,886 - No ! - I have it! 772 01:18:43,970 --> 01:18:45,763 I remember a happy childhood. 773 01:18:45,847 --> 01:18:47,640 Come on, come on. 774 01:18:47,723 --> 01:18:49,767 We dive, we swim, we race. 775 01:18:49,851 --> 01:18:51,644 Lidia went quickly this time. 776 01:18:51,727 --> 01:18:54,605 We laugh like other people's children. 777 01:19:03,781 --> 01:19:07,452 I remember first and last names as Evie Kosenkranius 778 01:19:07,535 --> 01:19:09,036 and Lynn Collella Belle. 779 01:19:09,120 --> 01:19:12,331 Lynn Collella Belle. Lynn Collella Belle. 780 01:19:12,415 --> 01:19:13,458 Lynn Collella Belle. 781 01:19:16,127 --> 01:19:18,045 Song loops in my skull. 782 01:19:18,129 --> 01:19:19,547 Lynn Collella 783 01:19:19,630 --> 01:19:21,299 Lynn Collella Belle 784 01:19:21,382 --> 01:19:22,383 Beautiful. 785 01:19:31,726 --> 01:19:33,478 Lynn Collella Belle. 786 01:19:43,488 --> 01:19:44,489 Mono? 787 01:19:45,948 --> 01:19:47,742 It's not kissing disease? 788 01:19:51,370 --> 01:19:53,289 No. Don't be ridiculous. 789 01:19:56,626 --> 01:19:58,169 Everything will be fine, Belle. 790 01:19:58,252 --> 01:19:59,253 You'll see. 791 01:19:59,337 --> 01:20:00,379 You'll feel better. 792 01:20:04,217 --> 01:20:07,178 And your father is doing very well take care of you. 793 01:20:08,804 --> 01:20:10,515 - Isn't it? - It'll be fine. 794 01:20:10,598 --> 01:20:13,392 All right. Mom will sell houses. 795 01:20:15,186 --> 01:20:16,771 Hey, sweetheart. 796 01:20:22,860 --> 01:20:23,945 My little girl. 797 01:20:25,446 --> 01:20:27,448 Give yourself a few days. 798 01:20:34,455 --> 01:20:37,083 It’s the language which lets me say... 799 01:20:37,166 --> 01:20:38,084 There you go. 800 01:20:38,167 --> 01:20:41,504 ...how four weeks can be years. 801 01:20:43,047 --> 01:20:45,591 This is the scope offered 802 01:20:45,716 --> 01:20:47,051 one page 803 01:20:47,260 --> 01:20:48,636 white. 804 01:20:49,095 --> 01:20:55,935 "No one is going to save you" 805 01:21:26,299 --> 01:21:28,926 You showed that to someone? 806 01:21:30,845 --> 01:21:31,846 No. 807 01:21:37,935 --> 01:21:39,604 The body, 808 01:21:40,062 --> 01:21:41,063 the skin, 809 01:21:41,439 --> 01:21:42,440 the scars. 810 01:21:45,192 --> 01:21:47,653 People always ask me why 811 01:21:47,737 --> 01:21:49,488 my work is so dark. 812 01:21:51,991 --> 01:21:54,785 What do you know pain, Lidia? 813 01:22:00,374 --> 01:22:01,375 I know that 814 01:22:03,878 --> 01:22:05,421 it matters to me. 815 01:22:08,257 --> 01:22:10,259 I will take care of you. 816 01:22:14,347 --> 01:22:15,473 Do you understand? 817 01:22:21,479 --> 01:22:23,189 Now, ask me what you want. 818 01:22:31,322 --> 01:22:33,491 That's not it, my angel. 819 01:22:38,537 --> 01:22:39,538 I 820 01:22:40,831 --> 01:22:41,832 want 821 01:22:42,124 --> 01:22:43,000 that you 822 01:22:43,084 --> 01:22:44,085 me... 823 01:22:48,047 --> 01:22:49,799 Knocks me unconscious. 824 01:22:56,055 --> 01:22:57,306 Whipped me. 825 01:22:59,016 --> 01:23:01,102 Where would you like to be whipped, 826 01:23:02,061 --> 01:23:03,062 my angel? 827 01:23:07,316 --> 01:23:08,484 Everywhere. 828 01:23:14,198 --> 01:23:16,117 Take it somewhere. 829 01:23:19,286 --> 01:23:20,746 Take the pain somewhere. 830 01:23:27,712 --> 01:23:28,963 Mom. 831 01:23:39,473 --> 01:23:40,850 I'm proud of you. 832 01:23:52,820 --> 01:23:55,448 I'm not trying to make you uncomfortable. 833 01:24:03,205 --> 01:24:05,332 I'm trying to be precise. 834 01:24:11,630 --> 01:24:13,466 IV - Resuscitation 835 01:24:13,883 --> 01:24:15,634 "Allegories of Violence" 836 01:24:15,760 --> 01:24:17,219 "At the time when my mother moaned, 837 01:24:17,303 --> 01:24:18,387 daddy smelled my pussy. 838 01:24:18,471 --> 01:24:20,222 I reached my best moment now, he explained. 839 01:24:20,306 --> 01:24:21,974 Now I was sure of this what he was referring to. 840 01:24:22,057 --> 01:24:23,434 This is the moment of truth. 841 01:24:23,517 --> 01:24:25,519 I'm leaving, leaving, leave, jerking off. 842 01:24:25,603 --> 01:24:27,396 My hands will break with that. 843 01:24:27,480 --> 01:24:29,148 I don't even recognize no longer my own body. 844 01:24:29,231 --> 01:24:31,192 It doesn't matter. I know you are mine. 845 01:24:31,275 --> 01:24:32,234 I made you, I make you. 846 01:24:32,318 --> 01:24:33,819 I swore to live for pleasure. 847 01:24:33,903 --> 01:24:35,321 My tongue is fucking huge. 848 01:24:35,404 --> 01:24:36,947 Feel it. She goes down up to my waist. 849 01:24:37,031 --> 01:24:39,575 You see your real father in his moment of truth. 850 01:24:39,658 --> 01:24:40,910 Almighty God, nothing doesn't matter. 851 01:24:40,993 --> 01:24:43,329 You are my God, my daughter, I adore you. 852 01:24:43,537 --> 01:24:45,539 I beg you, do it so that I can satisfy you. 853 01:24:45,623 --> 01:24:47,792 Look now. It's big in my twisted hand. 854 01:24:47,875 --> 01:24:49,877 Kiss him. My father explained again, 855 01:24:50,085 --> 01:24:52,838 I'm fucking God and I created God. Mess. 856 01:24:52,922 --> 01:24:54,215 All I have to do, it is looking at God, 857 01:24:54,298 --> 01:24:56,300 and God is happy because I made him cum. 858 01:24:56,383 --> 01:24:58,803 God is in heaven. Me I am in heaven and I am dead. 859 01:24:58,886 --> 01:25:01,096 The whole world in paradise. I cum on your face. 860 01:25:01,180 --> 01:25:02,348 I licked his cum.” 861 01:25:02,431 --> 01:25:03,933 That makes me makes you feel nauseous. 862 01:25:16,195 --> 01:25:19,073 "Allegories of Violence" 863 01:25:22,701 --> 01:25:25,371 Who the hell do you think you are? 864 01:25:26,956 --> 01:25:28,457 My father's daughter. 865 01:25:37,925 --> 01:25:40,803 "I AM THE WOMAN WHO SPEAKS TO HERSELF LYING" 866 01:26:05,870 --> 01:26:08,038 "Allegories of Violence" 867 01:26:10,541 --> 01:26:11,458 Damn. 868 01:26:12,710 --> 01:26:13,836 First year. 869 01:26:14,128 --> 01:26:16,255 Vodka! 870 01:26:17,756 --> 01:26:20,426 I drink vodka, almost all the time. 871 01:26:20,759 --> 01:26:23,220 A shot eye to eye, an eye-to-eye shot. 872 01:26:23,304 --> 01:26:25,014 And I didn't feel nothing of myself. 873 01:26:28,601 --> 01:26:30,477 We drink, we laugh, we fuck. 874 01:26:31,562 --> 01:26:33,480 We make shadows painted with bodies fucking. 875 01:26:35,190 --> 01:26:37,776 We make performative art. We perform ourselves. 876 01:26:37,860 --> 01:26:40,112 Fuck you, God! 877 01:26:47,620 --> 01:26:49,622 Open the door! 878 01:26:51,040 --> 01:26:53,083 We engraved the name on the other on our arm. 879 01:26:53,292 --> 01:26:55,210 I made it for you! 880 01:26:57,713 --> 01:26:58,714 Damn! 881 01:27:03,636 --> 01:27:04,887 We fuck septic. 882 01:27:04,970 --> 01:27:06,180 It was just in front of me, Devin. 883 01:27:06,263 --> 01:27:08,015 I could see exactly what was happening. 884 01:27:08,098 --> 01:27:10,184 - You don't even realize. - Don't even take into account what?! 885 01:27:10,267 --> 01:27:12,353 You don't even realize that I'm going to fucking marry you. 886 01:27:16,690 --> 01:27:18,442 To Mike and Dorothy. 887 01:27:18,525 --> 01:27:20,486 I'm so happy that they fucked. 888 01:27:24,782 --> 01:27:26,951 - To move on to the sixth year, - Hey! 889 01:27:27,493 --> 01:27:29,370 when underwater stories 890 01:27:29,536 --> 01:27:30,913 - start to itch - Come on! 891 01:27:30,996 --> 01:27:32,498 and the screams take a rhythm 892 01:27:32,581 --> 01:27:34,708 - where the alcohol becomes stronger - Go back to kissing women 893 01:27:34,917 --> 01:27:37,294 that I know and others that I don't know! 894 01:27:37,378 --> 01:27:39,004 And what is a couple over time, if not a line? 895 01:27:39,088 --> 01:27:40,506 I'll show you a fucking line. 896 01:27:40,589 --> 01:27:42,925 Your shitty bullshit are invading the house! 897 01:27:43,092 --> 01:27:44,760 They were invading the house. 898 01:27:49,848 --> 01:27:50,849 Oh no. 899 01:27:52,309 --> 01:27:53,310 Oh no. 900 01:27:55,104 --> 01:27:56,105 Oh no. 901 01:28:05,114 --> 01:28:06,240 Damn. 902 01:28:11,829 --> 01:28:12,997 I don't want to fuck. 903 01:28:15,290 --> 01:28:16,625 I want to read. 904 01:28:18,961 --> 01:28:19,962 Kiss my ass. 905 01:28:25,759 --> 01:28:27,720 I didn't want to no drinking. 906 01:28:30,014 --> 01:28:31,140 I wanted to write. 907 01:28:40,482 --> 01:28:42,609 What is a couple over time, if not a line? 908 01:28:47,364 --> 01:28:49,241 Seventh year, I am finishing my thesis. 909 01:28:56,248 --> 01:28:57,708 Eighth grade, I get a doctorate. 910 01:29:14,641 --> 01:29:15,642 Tenth year. 911 01:29:16,894 --> 01:29:17,895 We pretend. 912 01:29:22,983 --> 01:29:24,151 You said then 913 01:29:26,487 --> 01:29:29,198 that you would love me until I die. 914 01:29:34,119 --> 01:29:36,747 You said we let's die together, in love. 915 01:29:50,719 --> 01:29:52,471 You told me. 916 01:29:56,850 --> 01:29:58,352 Where are you? 917 01:30:05,192 --> 01:30:06,360 Where is the man 918 01:30:22,918 --> 01:30:24,837 who would like a woman like me? 919 01:31:08,755 --> 01:31:10,257 Don't you dare. 920 01:31:33,197 --> 01:31:38,869 "The Timeline of Water" 921 01:31:48,086 --> 01:31:49,379 Ha. 922 01:32:50,399 --> 01:32:52,276 "We are delighted to inform you that you are the winner..." 923 01:32:55,737 --> 01:32:58,323 "The date of your reading is planned for June 15..." 924 01:33:11,962 --> 01:33:13,839 “The date of your reading.” 925 01:33:37,321 --> 01:33:38,530 What ? 926 01:34:02,387 --> 01:34:04,014 Please welcome 927 01:34:09,519 --> 01:34:12,022 reading an extract from his first collection 928 01:34:12,105 --> 01:34:13,940 news, "His other mouths", 929 01:34:14,024 --> 01:34:15,817 Lidia Yuknavitch. 930 01:34:18,737 --> 01:34:20,989 Lidia, please. Welcome. 931 01:34:35,837 --> 01:34:38,298 "The day when my daughter was born. 932 01:34:40,217 --> 01:34:41,718 After holding the future. 933 01:34:46,306 --> 01:34:47,307 Stillborn. 934 01:34:51,061 --> 01:34:52,062 And pink. 935 01:34:57,317 --> 01:34:58,318 And with pink lips. 936 01:35:01,613 --> 01:35:03,990 And with rosy lips in my trembling arms. 937 01:35:05,367 --> 01:35:06,701 Small tragedies are 938 01:35:06,993 --> 01:35:08,620 difficult to order. 939 01:35:14,251 --> 01:35:17,587 The chronology convinces us that we are moving towards a real place. 940 01:35:17,879 --> 01:35:19,881 Swimmers, on your marks. 941 01:35:21,425 --> 01:35:22,426 A gunshot. 942 01:35:23,218 --> 01:35:25,595 A shot liberated our tense flesh. 943 01:35:27,222 --> 01:35:29,349 Fathers were often untenable 944 01:35:29,558 --> 01:35:32,018 while the little women were swimming for their lives. 945 01:35:32,102 --> 01:35:33,228 Swim. 946 01:35:34,729 --> 01:35:35,981 Swim! 947 01:35:36,606 --> 01:35:37,983 Quickly ! 948 01:35:39,192 --> 01:35:40,694 Come on, baby. 949 01:35:42,112 --> 01:35:43,113 Stronger. 950 01:35:43,697 --> 01:35:44,698 Stronger! 951 01:35:45,532 --> 01:35:46,616 Faster! 952 01:35:46,700 --> 01:35:49,870 A cacophony of men swelling 953 01:35:49,953 --> 01:35:53,540 and falling on wet movement. 954 01:35:55,584 --> 01:35:59,421 How many times have I slipped in the chlorinated depths, 955 01:36:00,505 --> 01:36:04,676 secretly hoping abandon this useless skin 956 01:36:04,759 --> 01:36:07,846 and emerge into something 957 01:36:12,225 --> 01:36:13,393 amphibian 958 01:36:15,854 --> 01:36:17,022 and without gender? 959 01:36:25,989 --> 01:36:26,990 The fact is that 960 01:36:31,286 --> 01:36:34,372 let it all in 961 01:36:36,166 --> 01:36:38,460 and wait to see what comes out 962 01:36:42,255 --> 01:36:43,256 is worrying 963 01:36:44,966 --> 01:36:45,967 and stupid. 964 01:36:48,178 --> 01:36:51,723 And it begins to annoy me 965 01:36:51,932 --> 01:36:55,810 that I even have to think about this hole. 966 01:36:56,686 --> 01:36:57,854 What I'm saying is 967 01:37:03,026 --> 01:37:07,489 that there is a woman in a room, tired of looking down 968 01:37:10,700 --> 01:37:11,868 and bleed 969 01:37:13,119 --> 01:37:14,120 and... 970 01:37:14,287 --> 01:37:17,457 to wear, itch and suffer. 971 01:37:19,084 --> 01:37:22,337 And tired of staying open 972 01:37:23,129 --> 01:37:26,591 without hope to sew up again. 973 01:37:37,310 --> 01:37:39,062 It's not that I want let it disappear. 974 01:37:43,233 --> 01:37:44,234 It's that 975 01:37:45,318 --> 01:37:46,319 I want 976 01:37:47,237 --> 01:37:48,238 that desire 977 01:37:50,240 --> 01:37:53,493 comes from elsewhere. 978 01:37:59,332 --> 01:38:03,587 There are times between the years which resurface with force." 979 01:38:05,422 --> 01:38:07,340 Remind me why we are here. 980 01:38:07,424 --> 01:38:09,551 I believed that it was your idea. 981 01:38:09,634 --> 01:38:11,011 I came here with you. 982 01:38:15,640 --> 01:38:16,641 Delusional. 983 01:38:19,352 --> 01:38:20,645 Grown women are stupid. 984 01:38:22,772 --> 01:38:23,773 I don't know. 985 01:38:25,066 --> 01:38:26,067 She begged. 986 01:38:32,824 --> 01:38:33,992 I changed my name. 987 01:38:40,498 --> 01:38:41,499 Mike! 988 01:38:42,792 --> 01:38:45,086 Lidia! Lidia! 989 01:38:45,920 --> 01:38:47,964 Lidia! Lidia! 990 01:38:48,715 --> 01:38:50,467 Mike! Lidia! 991 01:38:50,759 --> 01:38:52,093 Lidia! 992 01:38:52,469 --> 01:38:54,304 Return it. Help me! 993 01:39:14,032 --> 01:39:15,033 “Kill. 994 01:39:16,743 --> 01:39:18,787 Or resume the killing in an aspiration. 995 01:39:23,625 --> 01:39:24,876 And pump it 996 01:39:26,127 --> 01:39:29,506 in someone else's story. 997 01:39:32,634 --> 01:39:36,513 That day my father lost memory due to hypoxia. 998 01:39:41,434 --> 01:39:42,936 I didn't kill him. 999 01:39:45,105 --> 01:39:46,356 I didn't save him. 1000 01:39:48,608 --> 01:39:52,445 I'm learning to live on earth." 1001 01:40:01,329 --> 01:40:03,456 THANKS. Oh, that's... 1002 01:40:18,054 --> 01:40:19,639 But your parents have they read this story? 1003 01:40:19,723 --> 01:40:21,641 What do they think? 1004 01:40:21,725 --> 01:40:22,726 Enjoy New York. Really. 1005 01:40:22,809 --> 01:40:24,394 You'll land an agent thanks to that. 1006 01:40:27,772 --> 01:40:29,315 Lidia, nice to meet you. 1007 01:40:29,399 --> 01:40:30,817 Thank you for coming. 1008 01:40:31,317 --> 01:40:32,318 Excuse me. 1009 01:40:33,695 --> 01:40:35,155 You have something, uh... 1010 01:40:36,573 --> 01:40:37,949 a little stronger? 1011 01:40:39,409 --> 01:40:40,410 THANKS. 1012 01:40:45,457 --> 01:40:47,542 Carol Houck Smith, Norton Publishing. 1013 01:40:49,878 --> 01:40:52,046 It's quite impressive what you did up there. 1014 01:40:53,548 --> 01:40:54,549 THANKS. 1015 01:40:54,758 --> 01:40:58,720 No, really. It didn't look easy. 1016 01:41:00,096 --> 01:41:02,724 Tell me, there are others of the same kind? 1017 01:41:02,932 --> 01:41:05,268 something a little longer? 1018 01:41:09,314 --> 01:41:11,107 You should send me something. 1019 01:41:15,987 --> 01:41:17,322 It's just that 1020 01:41:20,408 --> 01:41:24,204 something in me was born 1021 01:41:25,914 --> 01:41:27,081 motionless. 1022 01:41:32,212 --> 01:41:34,255 V - The other side of drowning 1023 01:41:34,756 --> 01:41:36,216 And this is how you got me 1024 01:41:36,299 --> 01:41:37,675 This is how you got me 1025 01:41:37,759 --> 01:41:39,886 You taught me to be mean 1026 01:41:44,682 --> 01:41:45,892 But me 1027 01:41:46,142 --> 01:41:47,685 I didn't have any more 1028 01:41:47,894 --> 01:41:53,358 White dove feathers 1029 01:41:53,775 --> 01:41:56,236 To absorb the hot one 1030 01:41:56,319 --> 01:41:58,863 Piss coming out from your mouth 1031 01:41:58,947 --> 01:42:01,241 It's a small stone that I wear. 1032 01:42:05,453 --> 01:42:07,455 The shame of wanting something good. 1033 01:42:08,248 --> 01:42:12,585 White dove feathers... 1034 01:44:52,829 --> 01:44:55,248 I told you for not looking for me, bitch! 1035 01:44:55,331 --> 01:44:58,626 I told you so. And you... 1036 01:45:11,389 --> 01:45:14,559 Hey, what are you doing? Keep moving forward. 1037 01:45:32,744 --> 01:45:33,745 Hi. 1038 01:45:37,749 --> 01:45:40,293 Dock. Critical reading. 1039 01:45:41,627 --> 01:45:43,004 Who wants to start? 1040 01:45:43,296 --> 01:45:44,297 Really useful. 1041 01:45:44,505 --> 01:45:48,301 You know, we can't live the bad life. 1042 01:45:49,469 --> 01:45:51,345 It's a story that we have for you told. 1043 01:45:51,554 --> 01:45:54,098 Yours is just as important, it's yours. 1044 01:45:54,182 --> 01:45:57,727 It has to hurt. But I'm excited for you. 1045 01:46:47,068 --> 01:46:48,486 I don't care! 1046 01:46:48,653 --> 01:46:50,029 And now ? 1047 01:46:52,115 --> 01:46:53,616 Something small 1048 01:46:53,699 --> 01:46:55,409 and clearly caught my eye, 1049 01:46:55,701 --> 01:46:57,203 an important detail... 1050 01:46:57,703 --> 01:47:00,832 a bruise on the bridge of his nose revealing to me that 1051 01:47:00,915 --> 01:47:02,416 his eyes were blue like mine. 1052 01:47:02,500 --> 01:47:03,501 Hey ! 1053 01:47:05,837 --> 01:47:06,838 How much ? 1054 01:47:09,632 --> 01:47:13,010 I pay his pimp 100 dollars. I invite him in. 1055 01:47:13,845 --> 01:47:15,221 I tell him to sit down. 1056 01:47:19,058 --> 01:47:20,893 In history, I say, 1057 01:47:21,018 --> 01:47:22,895 "This is what that's what it's like to be me." 1058 01:47:24,689 --> 01:47:26,649 A woman who teaches English, 1059 01:47:27,358 --> 01:47:30,653 looking at a woman who sucks cocks all day 1060 01:47:30,736 --> 01:47:33,573 sitting on my couch, smoking. 1061 01:47:35,950 --> 01:47:39,203 When I look at her, I think she looks like Marie. 1062 01:47:41,247 --> 01:47:43,958 Every time that I see an image of Christ, 1063 01:47:44,458 --> 01:47:46,878 I imagine Marie so emaciated, so exhausted 1064 01:47:46,961 --> 01:47:48,754 and so angry, until such emaciation 1065 01:47:48,838 --> 01:47:51,299 that she can barely wear your own face. 1066 01:48:01,601 --> 01:48:04,020 In the story I say, 1067 01:48:06,522 --> 01:48:07,773 “What am I going to do? 1068 01:48:09,275 --> 01:48:10,276 Teach him?” 1069 01:48:13,154 --> 01:48:16,782 This is what I, an addict in full social ascension, 1070 01:48:17,491 --> 01:48:20,203 to whom something was given infinitely small 1071 01:48:20,286 --> 01:48:22,246 like words to believe in, think. 1072 01:48:23,331 --> 01:48:26,209 I look at her. 1073 01:48:29,712 --> 01:48:31,130 Offer words. 1074 01:48:44,810 --> 01:48:46,854 People tell me all the time: 1075 01:48:48,105 --> 01:48:51,859 "Things in your news Did they really happen?" 1076 01:48:54,946 --> 01:48:56,572 Isn't that the... 1077 01:48:57,323 --> 01:48:58,449 the question 1078 01:48:59,784 --> 01:49:01,285 when it comes to life? 1079 01:49:07,291 --> 01:49:09,293 Is this me really happened? 1080 01:49:15,299 --> 01:49:17,718 "University of Arts and Sciences Letters" 1081 01:49:18,010 --> 01:49:19,011 Andy. 1082 01:49:20,972 --> 01:49:21,973 I don't know. 1083 01:49:30,106 --> 01:49:32,984 Things that us happen are true. 1084 01:49:35,486 --> 01:49:39,156 But writing is a completely different body. 1085 01:49:40,491 --> 01:49:42,994 I was hoping we could discuss my manuscript. 1086 01:49:44,495 --> 01:49:47,123 Oh. Of course. Yes. 1087 01:49:49,875 --> 01:49:51,752 I also want to lend you my car. 1088 01:49:55,589 --> 01:49:57,466 I saw you take the bus, and 1089 01:49:58,759 --> 01:50:00,344 I happen to have two cars. 1090 01:50:38,799 --> 01:50:40,843 We can learn from it a lot about someone 1091 01:50:40,926 --> 01:50:42,136 seeing him in the water. 1092 01:50:43,929 --> 01:50:44,930 THANKS. 1093 01:50:48,434 --> 01:50:50,811 - For what ? - For letting me swim with you. 1094 01:50:51,645 --> 01:50:53,105 I read some your news. 1095 01:50:53,230 --> 01:50:55,524 I know swimming means a lot to you. 1096 01:50:56,692 --> 01:50:58,527 I always let my students choose the location. 1097 01:50:59,820 --> 01:51:01,030 You know, I wanted to tell you 1098 01:51:01,113 --> 01:51:02,948 that I had already seen you several times. 1099 01:51:03,616 --> 01:51:05,951 Yes, I read that Ken Kesey taught at the University of Oregon 1100 01:51:06,035 --> 01:51:08,245 when I was abroad, and I applied for the program, 1101 01:51:08,371 --> 01:51:09,747 but it was already over. 1102 01:51:10,831 --> 01:51:12,249 No kidding. It's funny. 1103 01:51:12,333 --> 01:51:13,459 Yes I know. 1104 01:51:14,126 --> 01:51:15,753 And then I saw you pace 1105 01:51:15,836 --> 01:51:17,213 the creative writing department. 1106 01:51:19,340 --> 01:51:21,050 I was reading that you did to Gerlinger. 1107 01:51:24,303 --> 01:51:25,471 Wow. It's... 1108 01:51:28,933 --> 01:51:30,935 It's weird. Weird. 1109 01:51:34,855 --> 01:51:36,524 It was a funny day for me. 1110 01:51:39,318 --> 01:51:40,319 For what ? 1111 01:51:49,161 --> 01:51:50,162 My father 1112 01:51:53,290 --> 01:51:54,291 was... my... 1113 01:51:55,668 --> 01:51:56,669 my father... 1114 01:52:00,381 --> 01:52:01,715 Your father? 1115 01:52:03,968 --> 01:52:04,969 Was violent. 1116 01:52:08,556 --> 01:52:09,557 Your father. 1117 01:52:12,685 --> 01:52:13,686 How so ? 1118 01:52:16,230 --> 01:52:17,231 Sexually. 1119 01:52:20,943 --> 01:52:21,944 It sucks. 1120 01:52:31,454 --> 01:52:34,415 I hope it happened to him some shitty karmic thing. 1121 01:52:35,833 --> 01:52:36,834 Yes. 1122 01:52:40,254 --> 01:52:41,922 Actually... yes, it happened. 1123 01:52:43,424 --> 01:52:44,800 Excellent, then. 1124 01:52:50,931 --> 01:52:52,308 Uh, I... 1125 01:52:53,142 --> 01:52:54,685 It was a long time ago. 1126 01:52:54,768 --> 01:52:56,687 I was a person totally different at the time. 1127 01:52:58,564 --> 01:52:59,857 So who are you now? 1128 01:53:02,526 --> 01:53:03,569 I am your teacher. 1129 01:53:10,659 --> 01:53:12,953 So, Professor, you will take my car? 1130 01:53:37,061 --> 01:53:38,521 I don't really know how to tell you 1131 01:53:38,604 --> 01:53:40,147 what it does. 1132 01:53:43,275 --> 01:53:46,195 Look at the little girl woman swimming for her life. 1133 01:53:49,532 --> 01:53:51,408 I mean. 1134 01:54:12,721 --> 01:54:14,598 Are you completely crazy? 1135 01:54:22,106 --> 01:54:23,107 No. 1136 01:54:32,825 --> 01:54:34,493 You think I am someone else. 1137 01:54:42,585 --> 01:54:44,295 I see the mother in you. 1138 01:54:54,179 --> 01:54:56,682 There's more to your story than you think. 1139 01:56:51,880 --> 01:56:55,134 - Oh, that's very good. - So. 1140 01:56:55,217 --> 01:56:56,593 Alright. 1141 01:56:57,219 --> 01:56:59,555 Okay, let's go this way, sir, on the left. 1142 01:57:21,493 --> 01:57:22,953 And the room? 1143 01:57:23,746 --> 01:57:25,873 They said she would be ready tomorrow, for sure. 1144 01:57:26,081 --> 01:57:27,082 All right. 1145 01:57:30,878 --> 01:57:33,380 It must have been a very strange journey. 1146 01:57:39,219 --> 01:57:40,220 THANKS. 1147 01:57:40,471 --> 01:57:43,223 You never have to thank me. 1148 01:57:50,606 --> 01:57:51,982 How are you. 1149 01:57:52,691 --> 01:57:53,692 Yes ? 1150 01:57:54,318 --> 01:57:55,486 Yes. 1151 01:58:09,625 --> 01:58:10,626 Hello, Dad. 1152 01:58:10,918 --> 01:58:12,127 Marilou? 1153 01:58:12,920 --> 01:58:14,505 No. It's me. It's Lidia. 1154 01:58:15,506 --> 01:58:16,757 I know, big girl. 1155 01:58:28,393 --> 01:58:29,520 I read this book. 1156 01:58:30,646 --> 01:58:32,022 - Oh yes ? - Yes. 1157 01:58:33,857 --> 01:58:35,359 Do you know who wrote it? 1158 01:58:40,113 --> 01:58:41,114 You. 1159 01:58:42,115 --> 01:58:43,116 That's it. 1160 01:58:46,954 --> 01:58:48,622 Have you read all the news? 1161 01:58:51,625 --> 01:58:53,335 Yes... There was one about swimming. 1162 01:58:56,255 --> 01:58:57,256 I loved her. 1163 01:58:59,508 --> 01:59:00,509 THANKS. 1164 01:59:02,886 --> 01:59:04,888 Not very flattering for me, that said. 1165 01:59:07,975 --> 01:59:09,643 That's right. 1166 01:59:18,735 --> 01:59:22,281 You know, I won a prize for this news. 1167 01:59:23,740 --> 01:59:25,158 I was able to go to New York. 1168 01:59:35,127 --> 01:59:37,004 Well, say so. 1169 01:59:41,758 --> 01:59:42,926 It's beautiful here. 1170 01:59:46,513 --> 01:59:48,390 You have a real home. 1171 01:59:53,604 --> 01:59:54,688 Well done. 1172 01:59:56,064 --> 01:59:57,065 Good for you. 1173 01:59:59,359 --> 02:00:01,653 The safest memories are locked in the brain 1174 02:00:01,737 --> 02:00:03,238 those who don't remember. 1175 02:00:03,322 --> 02:00:05,824 Oh! Oh ! Catch her, Mike! Get her! 1176 02:00:07,075 --> 02:00:09,494 You know I don't swim. Claudia, go get your sister. 1177 02:00:11,705 --> 02:00:13,624 Underwater forever. 1178 02:00:16,084 --> 02:00:17,711 There you go, big guy. 1179 02:00:19,296 --> 02:00:21,173 Look, I'm swimming. 1180 02:00:33,435 --> 02:00:34,561 What is it? 1181 02:00:34,770 --> 02:00:36,480 Water will enter my 1182 02:00:36,563 --> 02:00:39,942 nose and my ears and in my brain. 1183 02:00:41,902 --> 02:00:43,320 Uh, Miles? 1184 02:00:46,281 --> 02:00:48,951 How many times have you seen 1185 02:00:49,159 --> 02:00:51,662 mom swimming and doing laps? 1186 02:00:53,789 --> 02:00:55,958 - Lots of times, huh? - Yes. 1187 02:00:56,041 --> 02:00:59,169 Have you ever noticed 1188 02:00:59,378 --> 02:01:02,422 that I never had water in the brain? 1189 02:01:05,842 --> 02:01:07,719 The water never came in in my brain. 1190 02:01:08,428 --> 02:01:09,638 Do you want to see? 1191 02:01:09,721 --> 02:01:10,973 - Hmm. - Look at. 1192 02:01:11,348 --> 02:01:12,849 Tell me how much water enters my brain. 1193 02:01:13,058 --> 02:01:14,059 - All right ? - All right. 1194 02:01:24,486 --> 02:01:25,487 See? 1195 02:01:27,406 --> 02:01:28,407 Okay, shoot. 1196 02:01:28,907 --> 02:01:31,410 I have a game very important. 1197 02:01:33,537 --> 02:01:36,331 I will put my whole head under water. 1198 02:01:37,457 --> 02:01:38,417 All right. 1199 02:01:38,500 --> 02:01:41,461 And we look at each other underwater. 1200 02:01:43,547 --> 02:01:45,549 - What is this game? - I invented it. 1201 02:01:58,687 --> 02:02:00,022 The key is 1202 02:02:02,024 --> 02:02:03,025 to make up bullshit. 1203 02:02:12,993 --> 02:02:15,954 These are not empty words when I say that. 1204 02:02:18,248 --> 02:02:19,249 Come in. 1205 02:02:22,669 --> 02:02:24,296 The water will carry you. 1206 02:02:31,595 --> 02:02:34,347 "The Timeline of Water" 1207 02:05:04,289 --> 02:05:06,833 Anything. Anywhere. Anytime.